Crap! Back to the drawing board!

Some of my "well thought out plans" are sometimes SO well thought out, it leaves no margin for error and that's when things go VERY wrong. It's generally issues with TIMING that screw me up in order to get to where I need to on time, planning out dinner for that evening from start to end, my coffee/ caffeine/ energy drink consumption...

These well thought out plans generally don't account for the timing thing. Of course this is something I know about all too well and I know myself well enough to know that this is always going to be an issue and yet I still haven't learned my lesson and I still don't account for the timing thing when I plan things out.

Quirk? Part of my charm? I don't know.... It's a thing though....

Sleeping in.....

Yup.... I did it... And it was awesome.

Me and Caffeinated Beverages......

I probably shouldn't be drinking so many caffeinated beverages and energy drinks, but there are times when I can't function without the jolt of YAY! first thing in the morning. I think 90% of it is the self perceived need for it, but it's that 10% that screams for it like an addict at methadone clinic. Sometimes, I overdo it. I've posted about it. And considering the fact that I KNOW what high doses of caffeine does to me, you would think I would learn NOT to keep doing it, but..... I do.

My focus is gone, my attention span is diminutive and I run around like a five year old after a birthday party. I go until my body is physically exhausted, and at night, my mind is still racing like a ferret on crack. It's pretty special.

Self Defense?

It surprises me how naive some people really are about self defense and how ignorant they are about what REALLY happens in a street fight. Making something work in the sterile environment of a dojo, with a static partner or sparring with someone under the "rules of the sport" does not a fighter make. RARELY does that shit happen on the street, if EVER (okay... It NEVER happens in the street like that...) and it's NEVER like in the movies. It is dirty, it is vicious, it is visceral, it is animal, it is crazy and generally, it is over in seconds. Not MINUTES like in the movies or in "sports" and tournaments.

So, here they spend YEARS of training in some "dojo" with white guys trying to pretend that they are all sorts of Asian and pretend to be deeply immersed in the culture or whatever and they learn how to "properly execute moves". When executed "perfectly" in a street fight? Well, likely, you aren't going to be able to pull it off in time and the fight is over, you've already lost and you're bleeding from the nose, your eye is swelling shut and you are face down in the dirt wondering what the hell just happened. How'd that "self defense" shit that took you years to learn work out for ya?

Just wondering was all.....

Sounds....

For some people, the sound of nails on a chalk board is intolerable. For others, it might be the sound of crying babies, yet for still others, the sound of a fork  scraping on a plate. It's weird how different sounds will affect different people. I don't know if it's the frequency or the tonal quality or what the deal is, but there are certain sounds that will affect different people in different ways.

It's funny how people's minds will process stimuli. Sight, smell, sound, touch, taste... And depending on who you're talking to, some will find certain things to be pleasant while others will find those same things to be intolerable. Strange.

Sounds are a weird one. I first really started thinking about it when I was in the hospital after having had my first son. They carted him away in his little bassinet after a spent some quality bonding time with the little guy. I didn't think it was possible, but I knew his smell, I knew his cry, I knew his feel.... And I didn't even know it at first. Lo and behold, after some time later (and the most awesome shower in the world EVER), I hear the sound of bassinets being wheeled back into rooms. I heard my son crying and identified the one crying as mine right away. What do you know... I was right. He was hungry. (Surprise....)

At first I thought it was some weird coincidence, but I came to find it really wasn't a coincidence thing. Out of a roomful of babies at a party during an attempt at a synchronized nap, I knew which cry was his. Being at a friends house we each knew which one of our babies was crying, even from another part of the house. How weird....

I tried to think of other things related to sounds that seem to affect people.... The "four chord song" phenomena is something that I come back to a lot. I mean music affects us all in a different way. Certain genres of music are awesome to some people, while those same genres might be considered crap by others. The tonal quality of peoples' voices. Isn't it funny how one person could find someone's voice to be grating and annoying, but someone else finds their voice soothing and angelic? How about certain noises like sirens and stuff? It all affects different people in different ways, ya know?

Just another random thought that I thought I'd share.....

Morbid fascination.....

I'm not sure what it is about car wrecks and news stories about death (the gorier and messy the better) and the detailed reports of some kind of horrendous crime that people find so fascinating... I mean, come on. You can't tell me that you haven't slowed down to see a car wreck that happened on the other side of the highway and all the first responders are running around and trying to save the occupants from the car or cars involved in said accident. You can't tell me that you've never gotten engrossed in a news story because of something grisly that happened caught your attention.... Time stood still when they announced the OJ Simpson verdict, didn't it? We heard all the gory details about what that piece of shit did to those two people... (COME ON! Nobody thought that he was innocent. Puh-leeeease!) Everyone became enthralled with the whole story.

People have this innate fascination with morbid shit like that. Maybe it's a, "Wow! Well, I'm glad that wasn't me! That must suck for THAT person!" thing or what, but people are drawn to the morbid. A good portion of the time, I think people forget that the victims of these incidents are people just like you and I. REAL human beings that have thoughts and emotions and are feeling everything (or in some cases felt...) and experienced what happened to them. Have people become desensitized to that fact?

I mean, we hear people say things like, "That's AWFUL!" or "How terrifying that must have been!" and shit like that, but there are people that I've met that just don't seem to understand or process the actuality sometimes. Call it the "this could never happen to me" syndrome, but they are so ignorant to the fact that what they are reading about in the paper or seeing on the news was an actual experience that happened to someone.

I don't understand the people who will mull around an accident scene to see what happened. I don't get the bystanders who would rather stand around and video an incident to put on youtube than step in to help. I can't even wrap my mind around what the thought processes of people who just don't get the fact that reality is happening around them and it is NOT some fake occurrence going on for their amusement. And yet here these people are, vapor locked and eyeballing and ogling what's going on in apparent fascination about everything.... It's kind of sick if you ask me.... Just sayin'.....

Well, THAT was unexpected!

Shocked.... SHOCKED I AM!!!! A new study saying how diet soda contributes to obesity? That maybe perhaps these "new fad diets" aren't really all that good for you? Being overweight may be directly related to the way people eat?

ARE YOU SHITTING ME??!?? Are people SO fucking stupid that we have to have "studies" to tell us what we should already know? :face palm:

That money that paid for this study could have been put to so much better use, like educating people on how to eat better or how to have a healthier lifestyle and how to make those changes in their lives, efficiently and easily. But, no. We needed a fucking study about what is or at the very least should be common knowledge. It's pure stupidity. No wonder we're all on the highway to hell.... :s

Senshido Connecticut...

The beginnings of Senshido Connecticut  have been slow going and in this economy, people aren't spending the money. To top it off, most people don't think that they need the type of training that we offer. But, that's not going to stop us. We'd never give up on what we're doing and throw in the towel. We are going to keep laying the foundations and build a solid structure for something that we truly believe in, just like we did for the relationship that we have.

We've managed to get our foot in the door at a few places. We've done a seminar for the Connecticut chapter of the Guardian Angels. We've run seminars at Specter Tactical. We've done a few private seminars here and there and it's been quite a hoot. We have our own YouTube channel. We've handed out or put up hundreds of cards. We've completed our t-shirt designs. Get this high tech method! We each took a picture of each other in the passive stance, I traced the outline of it off the computer screen, and I shaded the fucking thing in, leaving white outlines so it didn't all look like a blob. Gave us some neat anime hair and VOILA! Our t-shirt designs. (Mine are the only ones that come in puppy paws pink so don't ask.)  We are every bit the well intentioned start up company if ever there was one.

We live in uncertain times. Of that, there is not doubt. We live in a dangerous time and danger is really around every corner. Wrong place, wrong time and FLABAMMO! Something bad can happen. It's more commonplace than not these days. And here we are, trying to offer a service that may actually be the difference between becoming a statistic or prevailing. And it can be learned, absorbed and accomplished in a three or four hour time period, instead of years of  having to train. The great thing about it is that even a small framed (5'2", 97 lbs.) woman like myself can make the shit work on someone twice my size, which I have made happen in seminars we've run. I have the grace of a drunken walrus, I am a spaz of epic proportions and yet I can still get the concepts to work and work well. I've posted about Senshido before HERE, HERE, HERE, and HERE. Take the time to read back through. It's okay. I'll wait......

Hey! Welcome back! (Well, for those who went and took the time to click on the links....) I'm not trying to sell a snake oil here. Anyone can actually make these concepts work.  My Puppy Guts has used it for real multiple times in the course of his day (night) job. It's not a graceful "art" by any stretch of the imagination, but it does work. We're just gonna keep at it and make sure that we enlighten as many people that we can because both Puppy Guts and I believe that being well prepared and ready and safe is better than being ill prepared and fucked if the shit should hit the fan. We can't always count on the kindness of strangers to do the right thing any more. Sometimes, we are forced to deal with things on our own because that's what people are these days. (It's called the "bystander effect". Look it up on Googlie Google....) Something happens and it's shoulda, coulda, woulda..... The biggest regrets of people start with that...

I've tried to explain how simple to use and apply, the concepts of Senshido is. Being able to deliver mild discomfort to someone to get their attention all the way to ruining them so badly, their mom's wouldn't be able to recognize them (if they survived...) and every stop in between. It's a valuable self defense concept that even someone like myself can use, apply, manipulate and get to work despite my lack of coordination, strength, size and ability (or really, lack thereof....) and I am a spazoid of EPIC proportions. (I have the rare talent of being able to trip on my own feet while standing still...) I mean, I've trained in a few different "martial arts" and it was difficult for me to apply those "skills"  and get them to work on an opponent in the sterile environment of the dojo. Yes, for most people, those dojo ballet dance moves will be executed properly on a static partner or with a partner not using live energy at full speed. But that's not real life, is it. Just because you can get it to work on the mats doesn't mean you're going to get it to work out on the streets when your life or the life of the person/ people that are with you might depend on it. How comforting is that? Years of training in "self defense" and if you question for a second, "Is this going to fail?" You're in deep shit. 

And really? Honestly? For someone at my size, with my build, my need to hug the floor all the time, with my face (because I didn't "trip".... Well.... Fine I did, but still....)? Am I really going to get the dojo dancing to keep me and mine safe if I can't even get it to work or execute the moves themselves without hurting myself? Senshido eliminates those concerns because they are concepts that we already know how to do. It hasn't left the primal parts of our brains. It is a caveman/ animal reaction that just needs to be unleashed. The concepts don't need to be "taught". One only needs to be taught that they have them and how to apply them. My spaz moments may happen, but they can still be incorporated into the constant barrage of attacks that I can continue to deliver, despite my "moments". It's so simple, cavemen used to do it. 

We wholly believe in the Senshido concepts and we will spread the word to anyone who'll listen. For all others, do carry on, but don't ever say I didn't warn you.

Summer's here....

Yup! Well into the swing of the summertime. It's hot and humid, but that doesn't stop some people from going out and doing summertime stuff. Enter my complaint about this.....

What is the deal with some of these morbidly obese people, walking around in barely there clothes that leaves little to the imagination or in some cases, no clothes at all that just makes it all too real? Unclothed or somewhat clothed, believe me when I say, even if these people were wearing a tent, I wouldn't want to imagine anything. The only thing I want to imagine is them on a different continent, or at least the very least, not in my line of sight. Cheese and crawl! What makes these people think that it's okay to go out in public looking like that? Honestly? As much as I hear that beauty is in the eye of the beholder and all, (and believe me, I get it! I am a funny looking woman and yet my Puppy Guts thinks I'm BEAUTIFUL.... I don't ever want him to get his eyes checked.... EVER...) but, WHAT THE FUCK!

Obesity is a sickness. Not just of the body, but of the mind. For one to be in such denial about it and think, "It's not that bad..." or say things like, "but I'm in perfect health..." or blame it on genetics or a "hormonal imbalance" or being "big-boned" or "I've been trying, but..." while stuffing their fat gobs full of crap that they shouldn't be eating... Really? That is a sickness of the mind. It's wrong and it is disgusting. Shoving down a whole shitload of crap and washing it down with a diet soda (which is also VERY disgusting....) does not a healthy diet make either!

The unfortunate thing is that this plague of obesity is becoming far too commonplace. It's fucking EVERYWHERE! It's really no wonder fat people think it's okay to be fat when there are SO many varying degrees of fat to choose from these days. When "fat" is the norm, it's difficult to see that being "not as fat" still isn't healthy. It's just a lesser degree of being fat and people just don't understand that. Instead of seeking out and going for "healthy" they are just seeking out lesser degrees of being fat. How is that supposed to be okay? Because it's not.

Then, these people hand down this cockamamie bullshit idea that "healthy" isn't normal or is ridiculous or impossible and that being the lesser degrees of being fat is okay. No wonder there are more fat kids running around these days! What the fuck is going on? This is another example of the human race slipping down that downward spiral into hell..... DID WE NOT SEE THE MOVIE, "WALL-E"??!?? That's where the fuck we're headed people!

We need to start making being healthy and fit "normal". Start getting up off our asses and wanting it for ourselves. We need to stop making excuses about not doing it. In such an instant gratification world that we live in, I realize that "right now, right now, right now!" is something that everyone wants, and unfortunately, they feel that way about their food as well. Microwave gourmets and heat-it-up chefs are SO abundant and cooking from scratch is scoffed... We have FOOD PORN CHANNELS that teach us how to easily make nommy food from scratch. Healthier alternatives to the crap you stick into the microwave! Sure, it's not a two minute easy fix, but isn't worth the time to spend thirty minutes for a step towards a healthier lifestyle?

People need to take responsibility of their own health and wellbeing. Healthy diet, exercise and working towards being fit instead of being happy with a lesser degree of being fat. It's really not a matter of making excuses and saying, "Well, I'm busy and don't have time to devote becoming a gym rat..." Think about how many hours you sit in front of the tv on your ass... Couldn't that time be better spent going for a walk or actually making something healthy to eat? Small steps like that really DO make a difference! It doesn't have to be a giant and complete lifestyle change, but a small step in the right direction can make a world of difference!

Mama cat.....

Now, having spent some time away from my little ones because they are spending part of the summer with their dad, I find myself in a rut of boredom. There are no little ones to have "interesting conversations" with, no tea parties to be had, no "which car would be better on GTA" no "can we read this book?", "can we play this game?", "can we go to the park?", "no can my friend <whoever> come over for a play date?".... No laundry, not too much cleaning or cooking, no schedules, not even relaxed schedules... No nothing. I mean sure. I know that it's important to make sure that I have some relaxation time, but quite honestly? I was bored after about four hours without them... :s

Happy Birthday, Puppy Guts!

My Dearest Puppy Guts,
Today is your birthday and guess what? I love you more today than I did yesterday! Today is your special day, although, for me, the every moment of every day that you spend with me is ALWAYS special.... Every day has been a gift and they have only gotten better and will only continue to get better. Thanks for being born! :) I love you all over the place! XOXOX
Your Kitten Puddles, always!

GO OUTSIDE!!!!

I think I meet/ come across more kids that would rather be INSIDE on a summer day than out. WTF is that shit about? I remember being little and during the summer vacations going outside first thing in the morning and not coming home until the street lights came on... I mean, I get that we live in a different time and that it might not be safe for kids to be let out like that all day and stuff, but still. We WANTED to be outside and running and playing and stuff. Stuff like excessive heat and humidity didn't bother us! Hell no! We played outside in the rain, in the cold, in the heat, in the snow. It didn't fucking matter! It didn't affect us. We were immune to all of that shit!

I'm not sure whether it's because the kids have become so much more whiny sissy baby these days or because they're just fucking lazy, but I just don't see as many kids outside playing anymore. Then you've got your gaming consoles and computers with the internet and the little technology packed doodads and doojobbies..... It really makes me sick. And you can't exactly put all the blame on just the kids either. When the parents are big, fat, lazy couch potatoes and setting the example by not moving their wide and way too ample asses up and off the couch and be fit, I suppose it makes things difficult for kids to see that it is certainly NOT normal behavior.

It's summer vacation for crying out loud! All too soon, these kids are going to be complaining about being cooped up in a classroom all day and it being REQUIRED that they sit around on their asses. For the time being, get them outside and running around and playing and moving and keeping their bodies fit. Being fat is a disease that's plaguing the world. Eating healthy and actually MOVING is the cure. Go out and DO IT!

Happy Fourth of July!

Here we are again at another Fourth of July and as my yearly service announcement thing, I'm here to remind people what this day is really about. I know that it might come as quite a shock to some people, but today is NOT a holiday to get shit faced drunk,  be a barbecue glutton, and party like an asshole until fireworks time. It is not some foreign country pride day. It is not some "let's pretend to care today and go back about our business tomorrow!" day. 


Independence Day, commonly known as the Fourth of July, is a federal holiday in the United States commemorating the adoption of the Declaration of Independence on July 4, 1776, declaring independence from the Kingdom of Great Britain. It is a celebration of our nation's history, government, and the traditions of the United States. Independence Day is the national day of the United States. 


It is American pride day. It is about Americans and OUR country and what made it great. The very beginnings of our great nation. It saddens me greatly as I see it fall to pieces, but it still doesn't stop me from being PROUD to be an American. Not Japanese American. Not Asian American. Nuh-uh. It's either that you are or you're not. I am an American. I bleed red, white and blue. 


So, Happy Fourth of July my fellow patriots! Happy Independence Day my fellow Americans! Let's show the world we haven't forgotten what this day is and show them that we are proud Americans! 

Pfft....

What is it about people and their need for their self importance and needing to show people around them how important and special they think themselves to be? :eye roll: It so sad to me that these people need to point it out. The fact that you need to point out your own self importance is.... Well, it's actually kind of pathetic. What is it about their need to feed their pathetic and fragile little egos?

If I didn't perceive you to be important enough for me to notice you, don't think that trying to point it out to me is going to make it better. Honestly. What the fuck is wrong with you people? Don't mind me as I point and laugh.

Intimidation.....

True intimidation only works when the intimidator is convincing AND the intimidatee is convinced. If something in that formula is off or not there, it just doesn't work. True intimidation can only be had when the actual follow through is imminent and there is true intent behind the words and the actions of the intimidator are thorough and complete . Otherwise, it is just worthy of my contempt. 


Nice try asshole.  And as a word of advice,  next time, try not to look so shocked when I shove your efforts back down your throat and laugh. It kinda gives away the fact that it was yet another half-assed and pathetic attempt. You know. Again.