Veteran's Day...

Whether or not you agree with the concept of war or not, whether you agree whether we needed to be somewhere fighting or not, whether  you think that what our troops do is "right" or not, there is no denying that they are out there fighting to make sure that you have and keep the right to speak your damn mind and laud or bash them without fear of consequence. They have done so from the very beginnings of our young country. We should be thankful to those who are laying down their lives to ensure that we keep our liberties. We should be grateful to our veterans for ensuring that we are all able to be free as Americans and everything that it entails.

I'm sick and tired of hearing about, reading about and seeing anti-troop sentiments. They are being called "terrorists" and "baby killers".... According to these anti war/ anti troop nutbags, we should reach amicable resolutions through peaceful negotiations.... With countries whose sole purpose is to see the US fall and become assimilated. I'm not sure whether I see them as naive or stupid....

I am fed up with the fact that "PATRIOTISM" is just a word these days. Seeing anti-American sentiments from those who call themselves American.... WHAT THE FUCK??!?? Now, don't get me wrong. I do whole-heartedly agree that we need SERIOUS changes made to "the system". But I don't think it's going to be accomplished by sitting around on the street with signs and "occupying" somewhere, being counter-productive to EVERYTHING that they supposedly stand for.

Today is a day about giving thanks to those who have served or are serving THIS COUNTRY. I'm sure that useless tit in the white house won't say anything about today, so I guess it's up to people like me who still believe in the greatness of what this country is and could become thanks to our troops.

I, as an American, thank all of our troops, past, present and future, for your service. I promise, I haven't forgotten what this day is about.

Keeping My Marbles.....

There are a lot of ways to keep the mind sharp. Some people do puzzles or crosswords or word games or simply just read. Other people just don't seem to care and willing let the mind go as they slide into a downward spiral into senility or stupidity or insanity.... Whatever.

Me? I prefer to stay on top of things and try to preserve as much of my mind as I can. It's an unfortunate thing though. I have the memory of a steel sieve and my attention span is spotty at best. I have to write everything down or else I may as well have NOT heard or thought of or was told to do or told to remember whatever. There are scraps of paper EVERYWHERE to remind me of something that I'm supposed to remember. The funny thing is, I remember where all the scraps of paper are..... Go figure.

I watch my dad as his mind falls apart. Most days he is lucid and functions like his normal crotchety, cranky, verbally abusive old self. On the days when he feels like he's starting to slip, he worse. It's a strange thing to see it up close and personal. He is feeling his own mortality a lot more these days and he knows that he is getting a lot more addled and confused on a regular basis. So, he lashes out at those around him. I guess it's one of those "five stages" thing..... It's just that he hasn't quite left "ANGER" yet.... I have a feeling he's gonna just be one of those miserable sons of bitches that never does and will be stuck in "ANGER" until he finally succumbs to the cold hand of death.... And death might even think twice about taking him.....

I guess it must be rather scary to know you're losing your mind slowly but surely. And on most days I do try to be sensitive of that and try not to sneer and hiss every time my dad enters the room. It's not to say that it doesn't happen, but I try to keep it to a minimum. And we continue to do our best to avoid each other on a day to day basis, as we can only be in the same room for about 15 seconds before some apocalyptic event takes place. There are certain times when it is unavoidable and it takes everything I have not to tell the old git where to shove it and where he could go in a handbasket and that I'd be happy to deliver him there myself. (I have a USPS box marked HELL..... If it fits, it ships.......)

Whether his senility is a genetic thing or not, I plan to try and make sure that I stay sharp as I would like to be more like my grams and keep all my marbles (save for a couple) until I pass away quietly in my sleep. I can't tell what the future holds for my marbles. But dammit, I won't give them up without a fight. They're MINE....

Rant, redux......

I swear on all things cured and bacon-y delicious, if I have ONE more person tell me that I have to be more tolerant and understanding of the islamic religion or muslims and fuck all, I am going to lose my fucking shit. I mean, epic tirade.

<RANT mode switched to 11, knob torn off>

I mean, it must be nice for these people to basically invade our country and speak their minds about the white devils that we are and how they have the correct religion and will see to it that ALL will be bowing down to islam and be muslim or will perish in the changing. And they are protected by OUR laws and are able to do this freely, in OUR country! But if a group of Americans were to speak against the TOTAL BULLSHIT that this islam crap is, they get called racist and it is a "hate crime". We're uneducated morons who haven't a clue as to what the religion is based on. We're ignorant, intolerant, insensitive assholes.... Well then.... Damn skippy, I'm an ignorant, intolerant, insensitive asshole. I hate it and kiss my ass.

Don't get me wrong. I believe in the first amendment, freedom of speech and religion and all that and I'm all about tolerance and stuff... Really! But isn't it ironic that islam, Muhammed (whom I will here on out refer to as "Mo" because it offends me to have to type out that name), and the q'uran do not allow for freedom of religion and expression. Our American democracy and islam simply cannot co-exist. Every Muslim government is either dictatorial or autocratic.... It's their own agenda that they're worried about and they're just going to keep driving forward regardless of the American people. And that's HERE, in OUR country. In America, we used to call that a big, "Fuck you!".

Oh, don't get me wrong... I've got my own feelings about the other bible based religions too. You know.... Old Testament/ New Testament..... History can go both ways and the atrocities committed by all sides are very real. No one religion can claim any kind of high ground and "morality" over another considering all the wrong that was committed by any of those groups was done "in the name of god". I get that. Now, am I basing all of my judgements regarding this religion because of all of the terroristic acts perpetrated by the "fringe lunatics" of the religion that I see in the news? I mean, I don't need reminding that the other religions have got their own set of "fringe lunatics" and have their own little cults too. I'm sorry that this supposed "religion of peace" had been "hijacked" by some "radicals", but if muslims spent as much time and energy cleaning up it's "own house" and shut down all of these "radicals" who preach and strive for the "destruction of the infidels" as it did trying to convince the rest of the world how peaceful it was, all while brutally killing their own because of "law" and telling us how we have to be tolerant (while many muslim countries are barbaric by any definition ), the problem between"them" and "us" would solve itself.

Whether we blame "terrorists acting in the name of islam" or blame islam itself for the terrorism attacks not only in the U.S. but other places in the world, the fact remains, "islam" means "peace, only when the entire world says, 'There is no god but Allah and Mo is his messenger'." So, we are to believe that it's the "terrorists" who perverted the message and thus islam as a whole shouldn't be blamed or is it something else. I mean, it still doesn't change some of the American views on the islamic religion or muslims and, unfortunately, ANY middle easterner at this point (despite the fact that there are PLENTY of middle eastern CHRISTIANS , Sikhs, who hate the muslims more than we do, Buddhists, agonstics, etc...) because Americans BELIEVE that "them all" are all about the destruction of "the infidels" a.k.a. ANYONE who isn't muslim. And quite honestly, it's hard not to come to that conclusion when you consider this:

There is also this whole thing about every piece of land that was conquered by Islam for the last 1,400 years being considered the "House of Islam" and thus has to be taken back from the "infidels". This means France, Spain, Portugal, Lebanon, Sicily, Hungary, the Balkans, the Caucasus, Afghanistan, India, the Philippines, among others. They call this a "defensive jihad". Riiiight... Now, the rest of the world is called the "house of war" and has to be conquered for the greatness of Allah. A different type of "jihad" type thing. Uh-huh... Now, this jihad thing... It is not a "military side", but a duty to every muslim. It is more important than prayer or anything else according to Mo himself and muslims are to follow the "will of their god" without question or death... (Remember that bit?)

Um... So, what message am I supposed to be getting here? Let's sum up... "house of islam" to be taken back from "infidels"... Check. "House of war" needs to be conquered for Allah (trickle down to) Mo (trickle down to) islamic muslims... Check. Jihad, by definition is a holy war waged by muslims against infidels and is a duty to all muslims... Check. ALL islamic muslims are to follow the word of their god without question... Check. I don't mean to sound like a tool here, but I'm feeling a little threatened, aren't you?
And according to some of their laws, whether fringe or not fringe of this religion, a lot of stuff is harshly punished. Gay? Death. Not islamic? Death. Woman? Clitorectomy, burka, submission, subservience, stoning, DEATH. Don't understand? Death. Like dogs? Death. Masterbate? Death. Drink? Death. Bacon? Death. Some of my most favorite things are listed here... DEATH! And on top of it, they spew all sorts of hate filled bullshit about Americans HERE in the states! Allah forbid (literally) if an American were to go over there and spew hate filled rants about islam. DEATH! And they'll hide behind the veil of "we're a peaceful people... Our religion is one of peace..." because that's the face they want to show until they have gained enough strength... Seriously. Ask yourself this... Have you ever come across something where they talk about NOT killing someone or at the very least claiming that "the infidels will get theirs" when it "goes against their beliefs or supposed law"? And don't even get me started on those who cower and scream "RACISM!!!!!" when you bring up points that they can't defend, justify, explain, or clarify, or you ask a difficult question that would completely topple their defense.

You may have your apologizers saying, "We're so sorry about what some of those extremists are doing.... That's not what our religion is about...." but when you break it down..... Well. It kinda is. (And as I had stated before, the bible isn't better and does have it's own set of fringe lunatics, but that's not what I'm on about here right now, so....) Like I said, if these people put as much time and energy shutting down those lunatics and brought the religion "back to "what the original message was", maybe I'd be a little more tolerant. And do NOT get me started on American sympathizers who tell me I'm just being "ignorant". I'm not the ignorant one. If you feel that badly about it, feel free to go to any of those countries, tell them that you are an American, and that you are sorry. Tell them that you are tolerant and you love them. Go out into the streets and shout it out the same way they go out into the streets in our country telling us how we need to be tolerant and how much they hate us. Bring your spouse/ significant and / or your kids too. See how well that goes over.

Does the US need it's own cleaning up? Absolutely. My stance is, close the fucking borders, and let us clean up our own house. Send all these squatters back to where they came from and let them bitch and complain about Americans over there. And by the way, they should pay back every cent of the "free stuff" they got while they were here. Fuck all the global aid shit too. Seriously. We could use the money here. Shit, we NEED the money here. We want it all back. 
WE, the people, should take back out government. I know, I KNOW!!! Easier said than done. "How would we go about doing THAT, huh?" I know. There is never going to be one "super messiah" who is going to come along and fix everything in a single year or even a single term as president. We're working off of an ALL AROUND broken system. I am talking about everything from the social structure to the education system to government to the financial pyramid. Top to bottom, bottom to top. EVERYTHING. And the further along we go, the more tattered and crumbling the system is becoming. NO ONE can blame any ONE politician for THAT shit. It's all cumulative. So for Obamites to blame Bush for our nation's woes? Where do we go from there? Who are ya gonna blame for the next four years ahead of us? Who do we get to blame when the next president takes office? It's ridiculous really and it's nothing more than a vicious circle. The next guy is only going to try "to fix what was left for him" or whatever, only to screw things up more because we've strayed quite a bit from what our original forefathers set forth for what our country should be. How our country should be governed. I get that times were different back when the Declaration of Independence and the Bill of Rights were written, but the very basis of what these documents are and what they were meant to do has been quite skewed and have taken something of a different meaning, methinks. It was not an overnight transition, nor was it one man who singlehandedly fucked it all up. We may be ONE COUNTRY, but "united"? We act as squabbly, separated and we "sibling fight" worse than a family reunion at our house! (Yes, those evenings tend to fall to ruins in hell by the end of the night.) Yes.... Our nation has become a "dysfunctional family" at best.

And think about this: When it all does fall down, we're ALL going to be fucked the same way. Whether we are right, left, republican, democrat, libertarian, independent, a little of this, a little of that, republicans for Obama or whatever other democratic candidate, democrats for Romney or whatever other republican candidate (and I'm sure I'm missing all the other different flavors here), we're all STILL fucked the same way. Do you think it's going to matter what political affiliation you had? And is it really going to matter, under "whose watch" it happens in? Fucked is fucked is fucked is fucked. And honestly? It's inevitable. It's gonna happen. Yup.... Just think about THAT one for a second, boys and girls..... And when it DOES happen, "The question is, do you possess the constitution, the depth of faith, to go as far as needed?" I, myself, have faith enough to believe that from whatever ashes are left, we, as AMERICANS, will rise to full glory again. I do. We, the people, should untuck our proverbial balls from out of our bunched up panties, put on some big boy/girl pants and get to getting'. No more of this PC crap. No more of this namby pamby stance on everything. Let's start calling a spade a spade and not blame society for a persons "transgressions", but blame the individual for their actions, have them take responsibility for them, and let them get what's coming to them. As much as I say that "they" need to shut down their "radicals", we have our own to worry about and shut down, up to and including the useless twat monkey in the white house.

Whether it is those fringe lunatics who are carrying out these acts of terrorism, or it is islam as a whole that is fucked up, there is no denying that people are being beheaded, women are being stoned, gays are being hung, young girls are being forced into marriage and raped, there are suicide bombers shouting out something about "salad bar" or "ickbar" or some shit, our borders are being invaded and we are constantly being threatened, all in the name of islam.

And I'm supposed to be "tolerant"? Go fuck yourselves.

:drops mic: <feed back> :walks off stage:

9/11....

On this day, 13 years ago, and it started out as a normal day, didn't it? I mean, what normal everyday American citizen would have thought that one of the biggest tragedies to happen on American soil was going to happen on that day? Who could have imagined that an that on September 11th, of 2001, a series of coordinated terrorist attacks, launched by the islamic terrorist group al qaeda (whom no one had really heard of until afterwards), upon our great United States in New York and the Washington, D.C. metropolitan area. These attacks killed nearly 3,000 people and cause at least $10 BILLION in property and infrastructure damage? What? Who would have thought, am I right? 

But it did when four passenger airliners were hijacked by 19 al qaeda terrorists, so that they could be flown into buildings in a series of "suicide attacks". Two of those planes, American Airlines, flight 11 and United Airlines, flight 175, were crashed into the North and South towers, respectively, of the World Trade Center complex in New York City. Within two hours, both towers collapsed, with debris and resulting fires caused partial or complete collapse of all other buildings in the WTC complex, as well as causing significant damage to ten other large surrounding structures. 

A third plane, American Airlines Flight 77, was crashed into the Pentagon (the headquarters of the United States Department of Defense), leading to a partial collapse in its western side. The fourth plane, United Airlines Flight 93, was targeted at Washington, D.C., but crashed into a field near Shanksville, Pennsylvania, after its passengers tried to overcome the hijackers. In total, almost 3,000 people died in the attacks, including the 227 civilians and 19 hijackers aboard the four planes. It also was the deadliest incident for firefighters and for law enforcement officers in the history of the United States, with 343 and 72 killed respectively.

The attacks resulted in the deaths of 2,996 people, including the 19 hijackers and 2,977 victims. The victims included 246 on the four planes (from which there were no survivors), 2,606 in New York City in the towers and on the ground, and 125 at the Pentagon. Nearly all of the victims were civilians; 55 military personnel were among those killed at the Pentagon.

More than 90% of the workers and visitors who died in the towers had been at or above the points of impact. In the North Tower 1,355 people at or above the point of impact were trapped and died of smoke inhalation, fell or jumped from the tower to escape the smoke and flames, or were killed in the building's eventual collapse. The destruction of all three staircases in the tower when Flight 11 hit made it impossible for anyone above the impact zone to escape. 107 people below the point of impact died as well.

In the South Tower, one stairwell (A), was left intact after Flight 175 hit, allowing 14 people located on the floors of impact (including one man who saw the plane coming at him) and four more from the floors above to escape. 911 operators who received calls from individuals inside the tower were not well informed of the situation as it rapidly unfolded and as a result, told callers not to descend the tower on their own. 630 people died in that tower, fewer than half the number killed in the North Tower. Casualties in the South Tower were significantly reduced by some occupants deciding to start evacuating as soon as the North Tower was struck.

Deaths (+ hijackers)

New York City	World Trade Center	2,606
	American 11	87 + 5
	United 175	60 + 5
Arlington	Pentagon	125
	American 77	59 + 5
Near Shanksville	United 93	40 + 4
Total		2,977 + 19

At least 200 people fell or jumped to their deaths from the burning towers (as exemplified in the photograph The Falling Man), landing on the streets and rooftops of adjacent buildings hundreds of feet below. Some occupants of each tower above the point of impact made their way toward the roof in hope of helicopter rescue, but the roof access doors were locked. No plan existed for helicopter rescues, and the combination of roof equipment and thick smoke and intense heat prevented helicopters from approaching. A total of 411 emergency workers died as they tried to rescue people and fight fires. The New York City Fire Department (FDNY) lost 340 firefighters, a chaplain, and two paramedics.The New York City Police Department (NYPD) lost 23 officers. The Port Authority Police Department lost 37 officers. Eight emergency medical technicians (EMTs) and paramedics from private emergency medical services units were killed.

Weeks after the attack, the death toll was estimated to be over 6,000, more than twice the number of deaths eventually confirmed. The city was only able to identify remains for about 1,600 of the World Trade Center victims. The medical examiner's office collected "about 10,000 unidentified bone and tissue fragments that cannot be matched to the list of the dead". Bone fragments were still being found in 2006 by workers who were preparing to demolish the damaged Deutsche Bank Building. In 2010, a team of anthropologists and archaeologists searched for human remains and personal items at the Fresh Kills Landfill, where seventy-two more human remains were recovered, bringing the total found to 1,845. DNA profiling continues in an attempt to identify additional victims. The remains are being held in storage in Memorial Park, outside the New York City Medical Examiner’s facilities. It is expected that the remains will be moved in 2013 to a repository behind a wall at the 9/11 museum. In July 2011, a team of scientists at the Office of Chief Medical Examiner was still trying to identify remains, in the hope that improved technology will allow them to identify other victims. On September 16, 2013, the 1,638th victim was identified. There are still 1,115 victims that have not been identified.

So here we are again, it's that time of the year. Thirteen years later, and I still cry. I am still haunted by the images I saw on the news. I am still fearful that it's going to happen again. Sure, at this point, I could go on some rant about certain of religious groups who's people need to be more closely monitored and we should be wary of. Yes, I could reel into a hate filled speech about how soft our country's underbelly has gotten because of the useless and spineless douchebags who hold office in certain elected positions. But not today. Today, I pray for the fallen. I pray for the innocent victims of an atrocious terrorist attack, perpetrated by cowards, the lowest form of life. I pray for those who lost a loved one. I pray for our great nation, in the hopes that we may never see tragedy like this ever again. I also pray that I will be well equipped and ready to fight back and protect my family when it does. 

Fourth of July...

Not just another one of those "drinkin' holidays" folks! This is a day we need to be celebrating our country and celebrating being AMERICAN. Being proud to BE an American. It is not some foreign country pride day, it is not some reason to go out and bring light to something or someone that yada yada yada somewhere else. No. This is a day about THIS country and its people. Everyone else has a day or month to celebrate being something "different" in a country where IT'S ALLOWED because this is America. The least people can do, LIVING IN THIS COUNTRY, is embrace that fact, especially when they claim to be something other than American. Stop and think about this for a moment. I'm not saying, "don't take pride in being who you are." I'm not saying "Don't be proud of your heritage." I am saying that this is a day about you being able to do that without fear of being stoned to death in the streets or punished in some other way. Me? I will say, "Proud to be American!" EVERY day and be all "YAY AMERICA! GOD BLESS THE U.S.A.!" Happy Fourth of July!

Memorial Day...

We come to another Memorial Day and it seems that there are still many people who need reminding of what this day is and why we have this day off... It's not so that we can have another long weekend and have an excuse to drink and have a barbecue, people. This is a day we should be giving thanks to our armed services, the men and women who gave their lives so that we can enjoy our liberties and the right to drink and have barbecues.

Regardless of how you feel about our armed forces, there is a universal truth. It is because of our troops that we have the right and continue to have the right to have an opinion about all of the things we do and to voice them and be heard. Our borders protected, our way of life preserved, from the day this country was founded and hopefully until the end of days. We honor those troops have loyally laid down their lives so that we can continue to enjoy our freedoms.

So, here we are, on this day again. Puppy Guts and I fly the colors today as we do on most days to remind those around us that we bleed red, white, and blue, are proud to be Americans and we aren't afraid to show it. We display the emblem of our nation because we want to show that we support our country and our troops on this day and every other. We show that we are grateful for the ultimate sacrifices that far too many of the men and women of our armed forces made so that we can enjoy the choice to do so. We show that we have not forgotten what this day truly is about and the reason why we have this day.

God bless our troops, all of our armed forces. Here's to you. Thank you for your service.

Old People...

Yeah, I know, I know! Some of 'em can't drive, some of 'em are slow as molasses, some of 'em smell kinda funny... I get it...
But have you ever taken the time to TALK to them? I find it amazing when I come across someone who LIVED through Black Thursday and the Great Depression, WWII, Hiroshima, Nagasaki, prohibition... All sorts of stuff that some of us "young-un's"  these days can't imagine because we weren't there... Some old people are ornery and won't talk to you or even look at you... Who can blame them. They don't get the "respect the elderly" thing too often, do they... But get one who's willing to share? It's a pretty rare treat. Maybe it's just me, but I love to hear the stories that start off with "I remember the time when I was X years old... That was WAY back in nineteen twenty something,  thirty something, forty something..." Reading history books is alright... Hearing about it from someone who was there is pretty priceless...

Mr. Creamy Paws

Our Senshido brother, Corey Hawes, AKA Mr. Creamy Paws, passed away a few days ago after his battle with cancer. He left behind a loving wife, a a handsome young son, a beautiful little daughter, amazingly supportive parents, and a laundry list of friends and family. People, including Puppy Guts and myself, were truly blessed to have had Corey enter into our lives and we were truly inspired by Corey and the way he lived his life and the way he bravely shared his battle with cancer. He shared his hopes, his triumphs, his fears, his feelings and even his bad days and he really didn't hold back much. But he remained strong and steadfast, and always had a kind word to say regardless of how he was feeling. He showed people gratitude, love, compassion and friendship. He always made the people around him, even the ones he had just met, feel like they belonged there all the while, in his circle of friends. I have to say, I'm very sure I learned a lot about life in general from this guy. And what's strange is that, I'd never actually met him. But it didn't seem to matter to him. And quite frankly, it didn't matter to us. He was "our brother" all the same. 

Corey's good friend Jim sort of summed it all up perfectly for the rest of us who aren't so good with the words thing (well..... me.):
"Love long and hard and help those we meet along the way. Corey wanted people to live their life to the fullest and to love as much as they can. Every little bit we do in this direction is what he wanted and it's exactly what we should all be doing." 

We should ALL remember that. 

And now, it is with heavy heart that I, along with many others say, "Rest in peace, friend. Thanks for those valuable lessons." 

My love and condolences are with Corey's family and friends, along with hugs and stuff too. 

Justice served: Prison style.

It's not that I think that prisoners in jail are fine, upstanding citizens. I mean, thery're in there for a pretty good fucking reason.  In most cases I am pretty happy that they are, considering the crimes that they had committed to get themselves put there. With that pretty much said, there is a certain "law of the land" in prison that exists, that you do have to have a little respect for. And this, right here, certainly takes the cake. I love justice like this. It makes me giddy and want to laugh out loud As a matter of fact, it did. A lot.  Even a hardened criminal will not stand for people who hurt children. I like that.

Fourth of July 2013

Happy Fourth of July, people! Well, here we are once again. Let's all take the time to remember what the day is TRULY about! With all the other ethnic pride days we are forced to tolerate here, let's all try and take a moment to remember WHY you have the right to do so, WHY you are able to do so.

Today marks the day in which we commemorate the adoption of the Declaration of Independence, declaring our separation from the kingdom of Great Britain. Today is about American pride. It is about OUR United States. Our COUNTRY! So, please try to remember that before gorging yourselves on barbequed foods and consuming copious amounts of beer and liquor and overindulging on all sorts of artery clogging delights of every variety.

Have a happy one all!

Bans...

Seriously. If certain bans get through,  well.... Let's just say they are going to get even more ridiculous as we move forward from there. We're so up in arms about the things being flashed in our faces, that we aren't seeing the bigger picture here. Left, right, in between. We're all getting screwed the same way as Americans here. You know. We, the poor unwashed AMERICAN masses..... And we're getting shoved deeper and deeper down the rabbit hole. The bans that government is trying to pass are taking away rights from the American people. Rights that were GIVEN TO US to protect ourselves from this very thing. EVERYTHING is being dictated to us. How we think, act, speak...... We are being told what is okay and what isn't. We are being forced to become mindless drones. Slight of hand tricks performed by our government everyday as we get cheated, robbed and screwed by our politicians. Huge corporations are thriving and the rich continue to get richer. the rest of us? Well, we're all just basically trying to stay afloat. Yay.....

It's really because most people aren't seeing the larger picture here. They get caught up in trivial little things. Didn't think certain things to be "a big deal". And people are so easily distracted by stupid shit and get all fanatical over Honey Moo Moo and teen pregnancy shows and who said what to who  on some pedantic show about stupid shit and FUCK!!!!! WHO GIVES A GOOD GOD DAMN??!?!?!?!?!? So while the rest of the world is obsessing over talentless, fake tanned, funny looking "pretty people", reality is going on. And in this reality, our country is being turned upside down and inside out. And not in a good way. Yeah, there are a lot of good people out there trying to get the "voices of the people" heard.

I am truly afraid that by the time those glued to their televisions, watching some lame talent show, based on the subjective and personal opinions of has beens and wanna be's, wake up, it's going to be too late....... Shit.

Memorial Day 2013

Today is the day that we, as Americans, take the time (or SHOULD take the time) to honor those in our military who have fought and lost their lives in order to protect our freedoms and liberties as Americans. It is a day that we as Americans should give respect to those who protected our borders, our streets, our neighborhoods, our families, our way of life, our communities, our everything and gave all to do it. Regardless of which "side"  of war you stand on, there is no doubt that you are allowed you freedoms and are able to openly express your opinions because of brave men and women who gave their everything to protect them. And if you STILL can't understand that, then please, feel free to go. PLEASE allow the door to hit you in the ass as you do as you go to wherever it is that you sympathize with. I'm sure they will be more than happy to hear everything that you have to say as you voice your opinions openly.

To our service men and women, we thank you for your service. And to those who gave all, thank you for your service as you continue to watch over us in heaven.

The future?????

I am a miserable wretch sometimes. I really can be. I have my moments and I sulk and I fret about my life, and the direction that my life is heading. I probably do so more often than most people think I should. Whether it be about the "fate that was written for me", or whether it was the paths that I took to get here in this point and time in my life, the decisions I have made, the roads that I have chosen, blah, blah, blah….. whatever you want to say:  Here I am. No forwards, no backwards, HERE.  Right here, right now. There are moments when I'm just raw, angry, ready and willing and possibly able depending on the scope of what was asked of me, but having nowhere to go, simply because I haven't an idea as to what the direction it is I am supposed to be heading. I mean, it's not like I am not grateful for all the things I have been blessed with. A good man to stand beside me through thick and thin or stand behind me when I need to to do battle on my own, or stand and shield me when I just can't. ALL of my children are healthy and happy and haven't a need in the world. But beyond my IMMEDIATE. I know that I have the rest in spades. But now what? Where do I go from here? This can't be ALL that's left. I can't imagine that riding on this wave is going to be the rest of my life. I can FEEL that there is something beyond this, but I don't know what.

I get that if we all knew what our lives were supposed to be, life really wouldn't be worth living. How could it possibly be worth anything if everything was spelled out for us and we knew EXACTLY what was going to come next? On the other side of that, being in  a limbo and NOT knowing what "forward" is, is rather frightening too. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. There's no winning,  is there? But then, is there something to lose or gain if ya don't gamble on it and just........ sit? UGH! INNER TURMOIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes. It may appear to be that I am exposing something of a very raw and sensitive "vulnerable side". I'm pretty sure the there are plenty who would want to exploit that side and poke it with a sharp stick for their own amusement and sadistic pleasure because they are malicious pieces of shit, but…..  I have come to the realization that the opinions of those whom I hold in contempt really don't mean much and that those whose opinions I DO respect mean more to me than the noises in my head sometimes.  Those cowards wouldn't be able to expose their soft underbellies like this, the way I do, almost on a daily basis, and if they thought for a second that others might be watching and judging,  which  I KNOW those watchers and judgers are, I KNOW they wouldn't expose themselves like this. Must suck to keep up the facade……. 

So, what does "forward" really entail? Where exactly am I supposed to focus my attention? I mean, my children come first. They are my first priority. And then what? The thoughts that run through my mind beyond that become brain numbing. I'm not sure where it is I am supposed to go from there. I often ask myself, "What is my life about? What the fuck am I doing? Where the fuck do I go from here?" and the answers I give to myself are pretty vague and kind of stupid. And yet, the further I try too "see" into my own future, this vagueness and stupidity don't seem to be cutting it. It is becoming more obvious to me that I need to have a firmer plan about where it is that I want to end up in order to find the path to ultimately get me there. That part was easy: Knowing that I HAVE to do something to get to my ultimate destination. Actually KNOWING what it is that I have to do in order to get to my ultimate destination? Yeah…. No. Not so much. Fuck. So, now what?

Whether our fates were written for us by some supernatural being or whether it is that we make our own as we go along, life can be tough for those of us who aren't blessed with unbelievable luck and multi GOJILLION  dollars and endless "get out of jail free" cards and knowing certain people who happen to hold important jobs in important places, made some pact with some lower or even upper level demon for your eternal soul, and blah……. I'm an "average Joe", living a mediocre life, just barely scraping by, day to day, hand to mouth. I really doubt that will ever change. I mean, I really doubt that there will EVER come a change in my status there. Fact of life. Don't we all WISH for a better life and dream about winning billions of dollars in the power ball lottery or whatever? POOF! The reality? Yeah. Welcome back to it. Have a drink. I get it. It's okay. I'm still broke too. So are you.  But me? I'm also left wondering where my life is heading and what it's all about. There are some moments where I think I know, and yet an overwhelming majority of the time, I don't. Um...... YAY! Still doesn't help me much. 

Giving up isn't exactly in my nature. If given the choice, I'd rather fight tooth and nail, down and dirty, life or death, winner take all, loser gets nothing, and I will expose EVERY one of my enemy's weaknesses as I come to find them and make them more raw and sore than I am myself. I'll make them hurt more than I hurt myself. Bring a fight to my front door, I'll shove it back down their throats, ten fold. My loyalties only lie where I have drawn my lines.  I know where I stand and I know that the people whom I have included in my circle stand by me, regardless. It's a small circle, to be sure, but I think it's more about quality than quantity. And I know that those in my circle are more than willing to stand beside me and flay and lay to ruins, any foe who stands in my way, regardless of anything. Who could ask for anything more? Sorry. It's me.

Yeah. I still have no idea what my life is about. Where I'm heading, what I'm supposed to do, how I'm supposed to get there.... 

So, it comes down to, "Where the fuck do I go from here?!?!?!?!!?"

The answer? I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA!

How do I move forward from here?

STILL NO FUCKING IDEA. 

What I do know is that, in looking back, I have certainly come a LONG way. Much longer than most would give me credit for, but then, they've never really actually "walked a mile in my shoes" and I don't think they could have handled it anyway. It's actually longer and farther than I thought I could have come. In looking forward, Well.....  Faith can only take a person so far. The rest is up the whatever is left inside to launch someone to the next path forward I guess. What I need are the constitution and depth of faith to get me to where I need to be to get me to the next step.

I'll get there.  

The excuse....

I know that I am VERY guilty of needing to take my own health, fitness and wellbeing a little more seriously and that I should REALLY start putting a more concerted effort into them, especially now that I am, let's face it, getting older. And I will admit, sometimes I will make excuses for why I'm NOT eating healthy sometimes or why I'm NOT working out one day. Yuppers. Guilty. I've done it, I'll probably do it again and I will more than likely continue to make an excuse or two on the days when I just don't wanna.

On the other side of that, it's not as if though I have or will let myself go completely and just stop caring all together. It's not as if though my whole entire life is just a bunch of excuses strung together with a bunch of self told lies, sprinkled with dessert cakes, McDonald's and instant food. It's not as if though I have gotten to the point where excuses aren't going to do it and that these excuses are going to mean too much of anything anymore. Don't get me wrong.... I don't have the same build as I did in my twenties. It takes a bit more effort on my part to maintain a healthy physique and it really does take a toll on me when I end up eating something that is less than healthful and I skip out on a workout or two these days.

I know I rag on fat people and go on tirades about them, but the fact of the matter is, they let themselves become that way. A little bit of self discipline and self respect and there really wouldn't be a problem for 99% of the overweight people. I'm tired of hearing that it's a glandular condition from every fat person I come across. No it's not. It's a self control issue. It is about controlling your diet. It is about getting off your ass and doing something about it. It is about proper diet and exercise. It is about what you do and what you put into your fat gobs.

I really don't understand how a person can get to that point. I mean, especially those who are morbidly obese. Eventually, no matter how gradual the weight gain, it does become plainly obvious that one needs to lose weight. I mean it should..... It gets to a point where it is no longer just a disease of the body, but a disease of the mind as well. You can't honestly tell me that these people look in the mirror and think they look alright.....

Well, I know that it fuels me all the more to try and keep fit and healthy. At least I know that when the zombie apocalypse comes, the zombies will eat all the fatties first, and will end up becoming too sluggish to run too fast.

Control? Sounds more like "tyranny".....

Okay.... I've been tossing around whether or not I was going to touch on this subject, but today, I'm gonna touch on it a lot. Seriously. Because, I'm getting more pissed off about all of this as the days pass.

What the fuck am I talking about? Gun control. This is where I'm going today. If you find the topic offensive, then might I suggest you go away and come back on a different day. Oh, and to let you know, I am for keeping the private sector armed and their names NOT be made public. The whole "leave me and my guns alone" side of the argument, so..... Make your decision now as to whether you want to stay and listen to me rant about this..... GO ahead. It's okay. I understand. (Not really..... I mean, it's our RIGHT as AMERICANS to be able to arm and protect ourselves and our families, but if it's that your fears are keeping you from seeing that and your fears that are wanting for the government to disarm ALL of us because of your fears, well, I'd much rather you go fuck off now. Since when has it been okay for anyone to infringe on MY constitutional rights anyway? Don't fucking judge me because you're a moron. Go be stupid somewhere else. Thank you.)

Well, seeing as how you're still here and reading along, it's either because you want to "listen" to what I have to say to agree with me, to learn something, or to mock and laugh. Whatever. It boils down to this. Disarming the private sector? HUGE mistake. I'm not talking for the "people in charge" or for the sake of safety for everyone. I am talking about Hitler/ Pol Pot type bad idea. They disarmed the private sectors before they took tyrannical holds over everyone and everything....

Well, let's break this all down and touch on some stuff here. Alright. The argument that when our forefathers wrote up the Constitution, the technology that we have now, wasn't even imagined then. But times DO change and as we move forward, those inalienable rights are stil inalienable. By what is written, the second amendment is really more about our right to be able to protect ourselves, our rights, our freedoms as Americans. And as far as the word "militia', which is where a lot of people get hung up, well, gosh darn skippy, every American is part of the country's "militia". If something were to happen, and, by chance, there were no "military branches" any more or something, and we all got called to stand up and fight, guess what? Grab your torches and pitchforks people!

Just because we were to "get rid of the guns", or make guns illegal and stuff for the private sector, does that really make them "disappear" all together? Creating more "gun free zone"s is not going to make a person hell bent on hurting/ killing people stop and think, "Oh.... Gun free..... I guess I can't go on my killing spree here...." Nope...... It creates those "killing boxes". Like shooting fish in a barrel. Bad guys are always going to be bad guys. Take away the right to bear arms from your every day average "good guy", and there is more of a chance that the bad guys are going to cause more harm.

Disarm everyone and it's just going to create more creative criminals with crazier ideas. I mean, think about all of the mass shootings that we DO hear about. They are all unarmed people, stuck inside a killing box (created by mindless and fearful sheep / "the management"), and the media and government are blaming the guns for all of those deaths and injuries. Huh? Since when did we start blaming an inanimate object / a tool for the destruction of people's lives? So, what we are being told is that we shouldn't blame the person pulling the trigger. It's not their fault. It was mental instability, therefore the pharmaceutical companies and the fact that access to weapons is simple and easy, even though it's not, therefore, we shouldn't have them be so readily available.... Sounds like mental masterbation and absolute retarded fucktardery to me. No wonder we see so many people who WON'T take responsibility for any of their actions or words. This is what our country has become. Point the finger and blame someone else. Great.

I mean, imagine for a moment that we could POOF! make all the guns in the world disappear. Right off the top of my head, I could come up with a whole mess of different ways a sick individual would be able to kill a whole bunch of people without shooting them. Then what? Are we supposed to start banning everything? It will come to a point where we aren't allowed to do anything and we would all be armless, legless, toothless, sitting in a cart, because any potential method of killing other individuals will end up needing to be banned and stripped from us. Sounds ridiculous? Pfft.....

And while the gun ban issues are being pushed forward, as we hear about how guns are killing people, there are those of us who won't just listen and agree. We like to think for ourselves. So, as one of those, I'd like to ask, WHY THE FUCK IS IT  THAT WE WON'T EVER HEAR ABOUT THE ARMED PRIVATE CITIZENS WHO SAVED COUNTLESS LIVES BECAUSE THEY HAPPENED TO BE OUT AND ABOUT WHEN OTHER MASS SHOOTINGS TOOK PLACE??????? You don't get to hear about as many of those in the news. We should, but we don't.

Why? You may be asking yourselves. I mean, if you saw both sides of the argument, you'd be able to make an informed decision about what's best for you, your family, your lives and how our government should be run, right? Yup. THAT IS the point. These are all decisions that are being made FOR US. It's just being spoon fed to the sheep in small doses sprinkled with candy and sugar and antifreeze, to make it all palatable and kill off their brain cells a little at a time. That way, when our country IS completely taken over by a communist regime and everything goes to shit, the soft headed masses can only be left wondering what happened, and be powerless to do anything about it.

It starts with taking away power from the people. I mean, remember that our elected officials are supposed to be working FOR US? How's that working out for you? They live extravagant lives on our dimes. (Let me tell you, if they were working for minimum wage, we'd SURELY see a change in "the system" might quick.....) Yup... These so called "elected officials" are supposed to be working FOR US. What other job can a "hired employee" get paid more money than "the boss", treat the hirer like shit and get away with lying, stealing and cheating as much as politicians do?

So what's going on? Well, we're slowly being stripped away of everything that America is supposed to be for Americans. "Undocumented aliens" are given as much rights and freedoms as REAL citizens, if not more, and our civil liberties are being taken away, the enumerated rights, outlined by our forefathers, worded to stand the test of time as we continue to move forward, are being yanked away. And the only things that the petty small minded morons are doing is starting little civil spats amongst themselves when the fight REALLY should be taken to those "employees" who are supposed to be working for US and give them an all American smack down. But no. I guess it's much more important to keep having to listen to the propaganda and watch as the mindless sheeple buy into the bullshit that they hear every day and spew to those of us who won't bow down, the stuff they hear, verbatim.

All I have to say is, when the shit hits the fan, and I am able to protect me and mine, don't come knockin' on MY door, begging and pleading for help. It was YOUR responsibility to make sure that you took advantage of your civil liberties to do everything you could to ensure the safety of you and yours. It's not to say that I have a blanket protection from anything and everything me or my family will come across in life, but at least I have peace of mind knowing that I have some control over violence coming to my door.  Well, more control than someone who's only option is dialing 9-1-1.

12/14/2012.....

Who hasn't heard by now, what happened..... A small little town, rocked by a senseless tragedy. And right in my "own backyard". It's kind of surreal at best. Sure, I could have posted one of the many pictures of the parents crying as they were desperately trying to call SOMEONE to give them information about their children on their cell phones or a picture of the children coming out of the school, gripping onto the back of the shirt of the classmate in front of them, crying, confused, scared. I could have..... But would the impact have been any different? At the end of the day, 26 innocent lives were snuffed out, twenty of whom which were children. And of course, the gunman himself made the 27th death. The coward ended his own life. It brings me no amount of peace.

The 20 year old Adam Lanza, with malicious intent, went into an elementary school after he killed his mom, a teacher at Sandy Hook, and took out 20 children, and six other adults, before killing himself. I'm not sure why he couldn't have just started with himself. Then there are questions about some others that he may or may not have killed BEFORE he went to the school..... Something about his girlfriend and her friend or some shit..... I'm sure the media is going to be all abuzz about this "latest event". Politicians have already extended their condolences and blah, blah, blah....... AGENDA TIME!!!!

Wait for it. It's coming. Gun control laws and the call for disarming the private sector. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah..... I am sick with grief over this. And seriously? By disarming the "private sector" we are literally going to be creating MORE killing boxes for maniacs like this. If ONE ADULT had been carrying a firearm, well, yes. We still would have had a "tragedy" on our hands, but I doubt it would have been to this extent. Carrying a firearm in a school is a felony. "No gun zones"...... Yeah. I get it.... Actually, no I don't. What the fuck is up with that? Maybe I'm not comfortable with the fact that there AREN'T armed AND TRAINED "citizens" in the schools where my children attend. This tragedy could have been anywhere, at any school, in any town.....

I'm sure that this incident is going to spark quite a bit of all sorts of debates. Meanwhile, our kids are sitting ducks in schools in quiet little towns, just like Newtown, population 27,560..... Well, less 26 souls and one soulless bastard... My condolences and prayers to those families who lost a loved one. My thoughts and prayers to the first responders who will probably be changed forever by what they had to see. And my thoughts and prayers to the children and staff at Sandy Hook Elementary school who will, no doubt, forever be affected by this tragedy.

I ask y'all to take a moment of silence, please.

Veteran's Day 2012

Please take a moment today, to honor those who gave all so that we can continue to enjoy our freedoms (such as they are) as Americans. Today is a day we honor all those who served and gave the ultimate sacrifice. Today is the day we give out thanks to their families who paid the ultimate price. We should take a moment to remember why we are able to enjoy our country and what it is to be American and those who protect those rights within our borders and beyond. It has nothing to do with whether or not you believe in war or not. It has nothing to do with whether  having a military is good or bad. The fact is, we do, and they are out there giving all for their country. And if that's STILL something you can't understand, go find somewhere else to sob. I am a proud American and I support our troops.

Crap......

I can't exactly say that I'm not disappointed by the turn of events in this year's election. We're stuck with another four years of the same shit. Four more years of Obama pushing his "own" agendas, as would any other politician pushing theirs, I get that. But it seems clearer to me that Barry is trying to turn our system into something resembling socialism as opposed to keeping us remaining a true democracy. All the while, his wife, Michelle will continue to jet set all over the fucking world, with the Obama-lings, on America's dime, of course. Leaving most of us broke, going broke, or lying to ourselves that we're not, desperately scraping and scrounging to get by, as we wish for a better life. Great! It must be nice.                

So, here we are, a couple days after the election results are in and the determination has been made. Stocks have plummeted, the price of groceries is going up, we're bracing ourselves for what lies ahead and although we don't have the social unrest that was being threatened upon us had Bama NOT won (which some were kind of looking forward to.... I mean, come on! There probably weren't too many gun toting citizens who weren't thinking, "YAY! ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE TRAINING!!!!!" as they were stock piling ammo, dreaming of pegging off brainless looters and rioters, thus culling the population of some of the leeches and idiots that some call "liberals"...), I know I myself, was not planning on going out the day after election day anyway, regardless of the outcome. Seriously..... I wanted the dust to settle and things to calm the fuck down. Besides, we had that stupid snow storm Wednesday into Thursday, and because of Sandy, this past Wednesday was the kids' first day back at school and if  something were to have gone terribly awry, I wanted to be able to fly to the schools and get my children... <TANGENT ALERT!> It seems we're expecting nicer weather for the weekend though..... :s Pfft...... What the fuck am I talking about? This is New England. NO ONE can predict the weather around here. We may end up with beach weather or more snow...... Sorry.

And I have to admit that I am also very disappointed with the outcome of this year's election because I had real hope for real change. Not the bullshit "hope-y change-y" monkey fuckery that Obama had promised the last time around. You know... The monkey fuckery that resulted in where the fuck we are right now (which isn't as positive as it was made out to be in his bullshit campaign ads we were subjected to these last few months, mind you....), but for something really different. REAL change. Something that may have put our country back on track and moving back towards democracy. And honestly? To all those who really believe that socialism works, name me one area or country where it has worked out well for its people. I mean the common people, the middle class, as it were...... Please explain to me where "communism" didn't become much more corrupt than TRUE democracy and wasn't more corrupt to the point where hardships befell most ( and I am talking the vast majority ) of its people. I mean, don't get me wrong. I don't trust ANYONE given THAT MUCH POWER to begin with. But when you add together: people with THAT much power and the citizens allowing that same government with those people to make their decisions for them, mostly to benefit the powerful themselves, while letting what very little was left to trickle part of the way down, and where corruption was the only way to thrive.... Hmm...... I shudder to think. I'd really hate to think that we, as a people, are too stupid to make our own choices and need the government to make all of our choices for us.... And if you think that's NOT where we're heading, with Obama in office again, you're an idiot.

It's not to say that if Romney HAD won (although I still seriously question the legitimacy of Obama's "win"......), that magical rainbows would shine down from the skies and flying, unicorn ponies would cry tears of joy that would magically fix our nation's problems overnight. Where people would all miraculously become reasonably smart enough for me to believe that they were all actually capable of making intelligent and informed decisions. And, happy, happy magical hurray! 'Merica, FUCK YEAH! But honestly? The only real change was going to come if we ousted what caused the mistakes of this past go around in the first place, and we tried for something different. I mean REALLY different. Not, "give the guy another chance" so that he can "continue to move forward with his plans" and turning our country into a communist state that tolerates everything EXCEPT for the love of God and THIS country. This country, where, it seems, the liberties and freedoms for it's OWN people are lacking. Where the tolerance for AMERICANS to speak their minds and be heard and not have it be called a "hate crime" is unheard of.  As it were, right now, we are forced to tolerate non-Americans speaking their minds about how much they hate our country and Americans (as they continue to benefit from our government's hand outs, that they willingly receive, hand over fist....), and have ourselves be told, "It is their right to have and voice their opinions..." We stand now, where everyone BUT Americans seem to have more rights and liberties than Americans do. Yeah, and we move forward with these "slight changes"..... These changes would set back progress for the next guy in line quite a bit and trying to fix these problems is going to be a nightmare. THEN we're gonna see rioting! I mean,  seriously? What would Romney have been able to do? Maybe change a few little things here and there and fixing problems wherever, ALL while trying to enact what his version of what he believed government should be... Clusterfuck.

Sour grapes on my part? Perhaps. Although, I never threatened to riot and loot if my chosen candidate didn't win the election. I only hoped for the best and prepared for the worst. I will continue to prepare for the worst.

So, the re-elected guy will remain in office for another four years, with his questionable heritage (which he could have shut that shit down from the very GET GO with a big ole' FUCK YOU, and opened that shit up..... Well, if he had nothing to hide, that is....), his questionable morals (although, that can be said of ANY politician. Don't get me wrong. I REALLY don't trust ANY of them), and his questionable intentions for this country (as I STILL feel he doesn't love or even like the United States and everything that it represents....) and unless by some miracle, by some unseen hand of some holy deity, that brings forth some information or some unforeseeable happening, that comes forth or occurs before the inauguration takes place, SOMETHING that makes a second election necessary, perhaps with two different and maybe more "suitable" candidates for both sides.... The reality? Well, it is what it is. No amount of my bitching, ranting, screaming, crying, publicly blogging, nor social network complaining is going to change that. In short, it's done. Fine. I get it. Okay? I'll adjust.

Anyway, what's my point here? It is simply this. I know that I lean more to the right than to the dark side, although there are certain points of the "conservative" side that I don't agree with. Mostly things regarding my vagina and uterus. (Hey. It's my vagina. I'll make my own decisions about that shit, thank you very much!) And the gay marriage thing. Well... There are a couple more points that I take issue with, but that's not what I'm trying to get at right now. (Seriously. That subject would just open up a whole NEW set of rants, and.... Well, let's just not go there right now. Maybe later.) I am told that this all makes me a "libertarian" or a "republican lite". Whatever. I really don't think it should matter. I would hope that people would think they are AMERICANS first before deciding what's what and who's who. I think somewhere along the line, that all got lost. The nation has become divided again. Pro-this and Anti-that campaigns all over the place regarding ALL manner of shit, rallies and internal squabbles about ALL manner of other shit. One side blaming the other for all of our nation's woes. The rich keep getting richer and the poor are being fed by those stuck in the "middle class" as they struggle to keep themselves afloat......

That's really the reality of it all. And, let's face it. There is never going to be one "super messiah" who is going to come along and fix everything in a single year or even a single term as president. We're working off of an ALL AROUND broken system. I am talking about everything from the social structure to the education system to government to the financial pyramid. Top to bottom, bottom to top. EVERYTHING. And the further along we go, the more tattered and crumbling the system is becoming. NO ONE can blame any ONE politician for THAT shit. It's all cumulative. So for Obamites to blame Bush for our nation's woes? Where do we go from there? Who are ya gonna blame for the next four years ahead of us? Who do we get to blame when the next president takes office? It's ridiculous really and it's nothing more than a vicious circle. The next guy is only going to try "to fix what was left for him" or whatever, only to screw things up more because we've strayed quite a bit from what our original forefathers set forth for what our country should be. How our country should be governed. I get that times were different back when the Declaration of Independence and the Bill of Rights were written, but the very basis of what these documents are and what they were meant to do has been quite skewed and have taken something of a different meaning, methinks. It was not an overnight transition, nor was it one man who singlehandedly fucked it all up. We may be ONE COUNTRY, but "united"? We act as squabbly, separated and we "sibling fight" worse than a family reunion at our house! (Yes, those evenings tend to fall to ruins in hell by the end of the night.) Yes.... Our nation has become a "dysfunctional family" at best.

And think about this: When it all does fall down, we're ALL going to be fucked the same way. Whether we are right, left, republican, democrat, libertarian, independent, a little of this, a little of that, republicans for Obama or whatever other democratic candidate, democrats for Romney or whatever other republican candidate (and I'm sure I'm missing all the other different flavors here), we're all STILL fucked the same way. Do you think it's going to matter what political affiliation you had? And is it really going to matter, under "whose watch" it happens in?  Fucked is fucked is fucked is fucked. And honestly? It's inevitable. It's gonna happen. Yup.... Just think about THAT one for a second, boys and girls..... And when it DOES happen, "The question is, do you possess the constitution, the depth of faith, to go as far as needed?" I, myself, have faith enough to believe that from whatever ashes are left, we, as AMERICANS, will rise to full glory again. I do. 

I'm sure I'll get more hate mail regarding this post, with people calling me "an idiot who doesn't know what she's talking about".... Yada, yada, yada..... It won't be the first time I've gotten hate mail, and I know it won't be the last. I've touched on sensitive subjects before (like this one, or this one or this one or this one or this one.  There are many other rants I've gone on regarding stupid people, obese people, and certain other people I am not supposed to mention because they'll get butt hurt). I got the "what the fuck?" mail then too. Seriously.... In all honestly, we ALL think about some of these things a lot. I just say them out loud because quite simply put, I really don't give a shit that people think I'm a loud mouthed, opinionated bitch. At least I'm honest about all this stuff and I really feel that this stuff needs to be said. And, it's not as if I haven't gotten more than my fair share of "You're an idiot!" mail before, and I'm sure I will continue to receive more as I continue to blog about all manner of things.

I have to say, I am rather disappointed by those haters who take the time to send me those "you're an idiot" letters though. I have yet to actually receive ANY mail from disagreers, who open up a dialog that clearly points out WHY they think I'm wrong, where I might be mistaken, and make clear, concise points to correct me if they are able to prove where I AM wrong using ACTUAL FACTS. Although there are those out there that will back up certain people's opinions that I'm a stupid idiot, I have yet to encounter a solid reason as to WHY they think I am, I mean other than the canned, "....because you're a stupid bitch!" answer. In my defense, I really am a reasonably intelligent individual. I promise. I only sound like an ignorant asshole because my grammar sucks, I am barely capable of stringing together words to form coherent sentences, and I like to exercise my right to use words like "fuck" and "cunt" and "shit" and get all creative with words to come up with things like "monkey fuckery" and "twat booger". What can I say.

Well..... <sigh> So? What is there left to do now? What can I possibly do? Well, hoping for the best didn't work, so I guess it's time for me to prepare for the worst. I mean, it's not like I haven't been doing that all along. We've been doing that here at our house for quite some time now.  Pfft..... Call me the "eternal pessimist" if you must, but I believe si vis pacem para bellum.  (If you don't know what that means, look it up. It's Latin...)  As much as I have FAITH IN MY COUNTRY, and I really do believe in the United States of America and all that it represents, as an American and as a patriot, I don't have too much faith in a lot of its other inhabitants. Especially the ones who don't belong here. Those who call themselves everything but "Americans", because they aren't, and are likely here illegally. They preach hate about the United States or AMERICANS or are just here, sucking up our resources. I say: Send them the fuck back home (and when I said: "don't belong here", I mean: if they hate it here and hate us so badly, and don't want to be a part of THIS country, then they can just go the fuck back to wherever it was that they came from and shut the fuck up). And then, of course, there is my favorite variety, whom I believe should just leave for parts unknown, outside the borders of the United States. The people who call themselves "Americans" but act as unpatriotic as any of our multitudes of illegals and haters (if not more so). You know? We could always just send those fuckers to wherever it is that they "sympathize" with, along with a hearty boot in the ass and a loud, "GOOD LUCK!" as we give them the one fingered salute. I could dwell on that subject, but I supposed it really wouldn't do me a whole hell of a lot of good anyway.

So now, in the meantime, the rest of the world truly starts with a single step out of my own front door. That's where all the rest of the world lays. Out there. So, before I send my children out into it, to make their own footprints, as it were, I have to start by teaching them, molding them, showing them and giving them the solid foundations to be strong, proud, upstanding Americans, and to be strong, proud, upstanding people, with knowledge and truth, and have their hearts set on what they should believe in and not waver from those beliefs. Truly guide them to be worthy of being part of the real "next generation", in their own ways instead of becoming lost in the herds of sheeple, so that they might truly be able to help lead us, AS AMERICANS, forward, towards what our great nation should be.

Election day......

These are going to be my religions..... Well, maybe not Glock, but still....

This is the day when we, as American citizens, have to go and make the pilgrimages to the voting booths and decide the fate of the US for the next four years. Then at the end of the day, see whose smear campaigns worked out best and who won out in the popularity contest from hell. Hoo boy! I think I'm a little bit scared..... Buckle up bitches!

Something in the Air......

Today is election day eve..... Can you feel it? The future of the next for years for all Americans hangs in the balance..... We've been bombarded by ads and campaigns, all the opinions of people we know and don't know plastered all sorts of social media web sites, the arguments, the debates, the name calling, the mud slinging, propaganda mills churning. And here we are. Hoping for the best, expecting the worst. The countdown has begun.


Brace yourselves. No matter which way this goes,  it's gonna be a bumpy ride.....